loving darkness healing darkness stay with me stay here Consoling darkness do not go I am here appreciating I am here enjoying I am here restoring working on my pain Feeling my pain almost there digging for it Comforting darkness your peace is appreciated the quiet time makes me calm is it not your calm […]Continue reading
LURE
LURE of the challenge of the idea of achieving a connection of working for it of attaining it finally of putting in the work the work that creates hope false hope on connection false communication lying thoughts lying beliefs the programming that is unconscious the unconscious believer is half death does not seek change does […]Continue reading
TALK OUT
TALK OUT and hear back? only hearing honey not listening I do not listen to lies I am gonna speak up I am gonna express my feelings and stop the hide stop the falseness stop the betrayal stop the fawning Addressing the truth show the vulnerable person that is me that I am enough that […]Continue reading
PAIN
PAIN releasing it or feeling it leaning in it letting it be smothering pain agitating pain whilst it is not about solving it is not about controlling damage it is done the wound is already there and it has to dry it is that painful graze the one that does not need bandage that could […]Continue reading
WINTER⛸️
WINTER going in inward inside looking inside holding back the exterior honing in carving deep digging in living inside excluding the intrinsic part is what matters to die to let it die what no longer serves to calm down to die the excessive to die the excessive to economize winter it has it goods winter […]Continue reading
SHAME
SHAME a feeling the lowest feeling the lowest vibe minus 20 is the vibration of shame a yucky feeling the worst feeling the will to disappear the feeling of dying loosing face feeling alone feeling an outsider feeling less than others feeling stupid feeling judged feeling rejected feeling separated from others a vibe a situation […]Continue reading
RELATIONSHIPS
RELATIONSHIPS to relate who can relate? who feels the same? how can we feel what the other person feels? how can we empathize? empathize show interest relate to the other’s feelings name the feelings see their experience with your eyes imagine imagine yourself in their situation take care of yourself feel your own emotions dive […]Continue reading
LOOKING BACK🐇
LOOKING BACK reflecting on the days reflecting in the days seeing it seeing with distance using the space of distance to learn to see it in to gain insight looking in understanding forgiving giving grace receiving grace receiving compassion of myself receiving joy for all the things that went well being grateful for all the […]Continue reading
ACCEPTANCE
ACCEPTANCE friendships that failed did they? what was possible? did she forget the invite? was it just that? just that and the other little things? we lived so closely together we could have helped each other out? I could have helped her I appreciated her maybe she felt condemned? maybe we should have argued? maybe […]Continue reading
REST
rest rest? in what? in pausing in breaking in interrupting the work the work the work that needs to save me? will He save me? will I save myself? how can I be better if I rest? resting? creating? how can I create from resting? He will give me rest? for how long? when? a […]Continue reading